LIVE IN THE SUNSHINE

Soldier - Ingrid Michaelson - YouTube

Mon, 13 May 2013 22:32:03 -0400

I sit in the back of a bus watching the world grow old
Watching the world go by all by myself
I took a faith full leap and packed up all my things and
All my love and gave it to somebody else

But how do I know if I’ll make it through?
How do I know? Where’s the proof in you?

And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn’t easily won
And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn’t easily won
But it can be won, but it can be won
But it can be won, but it can be won

All I mind’s losin’ you.

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 01:55:27 -0400

All I mind’s losin’ you.

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Sun, 14 Apr 2013 14:56:53 -0400

My first real salaried job. I’m off to Richmond, VA. Wow....

Fri, 01 Mar 2013 12:17:07 -0500

My first real salaried job. I’m off to Richmond, VA. Wow. I’m come so far, with so much life left to live. Here’s to a new start, again. I am thrilled.

Yesterday I received a unexpected kind hug or two along with a...

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 08:48:04 -0500

Yesterday I received a unexpected kind hug or two along with a very casual conversation from someone who barely knows me in the grocery store. I think it was one of the nicest things that was thrown into my day for a short minute. I just wanted to say Thank you, you are a beautiful and appreciated.

Take a break. You must take time to re-center yourself, he said....

Sat, 02 Feb 2013 23:57:34 -0500

Take a break. You must take time to re-center yourself, he said. You need to step back and see things from a different perspective. I highly suggest you consider this opportunity while you have time. It’s ok. He smiled and I listened.

I love you dad.

You never know… Really. In life there are no garuntees…such a...

Tue, 29 Jan 2013 23:41:59 -0500

You never know… Really. In life there are no garuntees…such a cliche statement, but so true. I catch myself living as if everything in front of me and everything I hold close to my heart could be gone at any minute. It’s almost like I see it, right in front of my eyes everything slowly but surely slipping away. All my happiness is simply a coping mechanism of me latching onto hope. I am optimistic about the fact that I am in control of the way I view things…I can always hope a situation works it self out, I can always hope that the sun will come out tomorrow, I can always hope that I can overcome anything through the power of good thoughts. But no matter how much hope I have and keep inside, it’s not enough to control all that is still slowly slipping away. I wallow in the thought of permanence…never having to second guess myself, my actions….never feeling like I’m too much for a significant other.Wow, imagine being able to live with the freedom to truly just be and know that no matter how deep your struggles are or how weak you are, or how many mistakes you make, that you are no less of a person that you started out being viewed as. Sweet, sweet, perfectly, sweet.

I know that thousands of people find this lovely idea of permanence every day and
Live happily ever after…but happily ever afters in my book a certainly beautiful and happy, but they lack the consistent feeling of permanence..that 100 percent, till death do us part, you are the only fish in the sea I see, kind of feeling.

Life is still good and the world is still beautiful as long as there is hope…

But let’s be real here.
I’ll believe it when I understand it through experience.

yuleriots: worth 11 seconds of my time every single time.

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 23:27:42 -0500

yuleriots:

worth 11 seconds of my time

every single time.

When You Can’t Find A Job There is very little in life more...

Tue, 15 Jan 2013 23:58:04 -0500

When You Can’t Find A Job
There is very little in life more discouraging than spending thousands and thousands of dollars on an education only to find no one willing to give you a job and a chance. At a time in your life when the college loan bills start pouring in, your home is in limbo, your relationships and friendships are askew, and your excitement to get your life “started” is at its peak, there really is nothing more crushing. It takes patience, faith, and hard work to press on, maintain your confidence, and relax.

As a film-school graduate, I can relate to the suffocating, depressing, never-ending job searches that make you question every choice you’ve ever made – especially choosing to go to college in the first place. I know what it’s like to have bills outnumbering and outweighing your meager income. To have to accept an unrelated job where you are treated like shit and your high-school-grad co-workers are paid the same as you. Or to work in an environment where everyone is miserable and work sucks out your will to go on.

Whatever situation you find yourself in, the important thing is to be willing and able to step back and take a good look at the big picture. Remembering what you’ve accomplished thus far, reminding yourself of how young you are, and realizing that nothing is permanent – “this too shall pass” – is essential for keeping a positive, focused, and balanced outlook. Not to mention dealing with stress and anxiety.

Besides maintaining a healthy mental perspective, keep searching! No matter how aggravating it can be to submit cover letter after cover letter, only to receive zero response, do not stop looking for and applying to new jobs! Make job hunting part of your daily routine – you may want to follow my tips for digital-age job hunting, because really, looking for a job on the internet can be a difficult, time-consuming process that provides little feedback or motivation that you’re on the right path. So try everything… check your regular listings and keep looking for more. Talk to people, network, don’t burn any bridges, and whatever you do, don’t give up. Keep your eyes and your mind open and the right opportunity will find you eventually. It may be the ultimate test of patience waiting until that fine day, but the strength of self you will gain in the process will be worth it.

Be open to new challenges. So what if you have a degree in Ceramics. If a job comes along, completely unrelated, but sounds like it could put you on an interesting path – go for it! Avoid deciding that something is not worth applying for if it’s not EXACTLY what you want in a job. And on the other side of the coin, don’t apply to relevant jobs if they don’t excite you. Why waste your time just because they’re in your field? Follow your instinct… if you read a job posting and your gut reaction is interest… then apply! An unrelated job that lights a fire under you is never a bad choice, especially at this point in your life.

Don’t limit yourself. I remember receiving two calls from two different jobs each wanting me to come in for an interview. One of the jobs was in my field, and I was completely qualified and excited about it. The other was nowhere near my field of expertise, and I was barely experienced for the position. I almost turned down the interview for the second job, because I couldn’t turn off the what-ifs… What if they both offer me a job? What if the second job is offered first? What if I accept the second job and then the first job is offered? In the end, I ended up with the second job, after the first one interviewed me twice then never called back. Which taught me not to ever pass up an opportunity because you’re afraid of a situation that hasn’t happened yet. Don’t worry about what choice you will make if you get two job offers. Don’t stress yourself out about what you will do if you land your dream job three weeks after you accept a pay-the-bills job. Make the decisions as they present themselves; don’t waste your time worrying about things that haven’t happened yet, and most importantly, don’t limit yourself because you’re afraid of situations that might happen…chances are, they won’t.

Know when it’s time to make a change. Be aware of your progress, your finances, and your overall situation. Understand what your last-resort options are, and know when to take them. If you’ve been searching for a career for 8 months to no avail and are growing deeper and deeper behind on your bills, then it might be time to give it up and look for any job. At a certain point, any job is better than none. Remember, it’s only temporary. Chances are, with a college degree, you really can get a general-labor job if you want one. It may be mowing lawns, or flipping burgers, or running a cash register, or chopping veggies. But it’s a job, for now. And your job search shouldn’t stop here. Keep job hunting while working and something eventually will change. If you are working a pay-the-bills job but are still struggling, falling behind, and unable to land what you consider the “right job” – then it’s also important to know when it’s time to move on… or move home. As much as it’s not in the plan book, moving home is an often-overlooked option that, in itself, should remind you how lucky you are. To have a fall-back plan in the most dire situation is smart and nothing to be ashamed of. It is too, only temporary.

Lastly – enjoy this insecure, adrift, wandering phase of your life. Because with all certainty, it won’t last. Someday you will have a job, you will be settled, and you will – absolutely – reminisce about the days when all you had to do was wake up and explore the possibilities of where your life will go. Looking for a job, though challenging and daunting, is the equivalent of standing at a cross-roads and choosing which way to go. Entertain your craziest ambitions and remember that the choices you make now will affect the rest of your life. And if nothing else, enjoy the fact that you can sleep in, eat breakfast by the computer, and spend the day wallowing in your life and the direction you want to take it.

It’s inside. It’s in between. The times you doubt...

Tue, 15 Jan 2013 11:15:28 -0500

It’s inside. It’s in between.
The times you doubt Me, when you can’t feel.
The times that you question, ‘Is this for real? ‘
The times you’re broken.
The times that you mend.
The times that you hate Me, and the times that you bend.
Well, My love is over, it’s underneath.
It’s inside, it’s in between.
These times you’re healing, and when your heart breaks.
The times that you feel like you’re falling from grace.
The times you’re hurting.
The times that you heal.
The times you go hungry, and are tempted to steal.
The times of confusion, in chaos and pain.
I’m there in your sorrow, under the weight of your shame.
I’m there through your heartache.
I’m there in the storm.
My love I will keep you, by My pow’r alone.
I don’t care where you fall, where you have been.
I’ll never forsake you, My love never ends.
It never ends.”

I don’t want “things” anymore. I just want...

Mon, 07 Jan 2013 23:33:23 -0500

I don’t want “things” anymore.

I just want love and everything that it brings.

I want to love.

more.

West coast best coast. I need some of that sunshine kinda...

Thu, 29 Nov 2012 23:40:52 -0500

West coast best coast. I need some of that sunshine kinda livin!

☀

Just perfect

Thu, 15 Nov 2012 23:54:34 -0500

Just perfect

Fearless

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 00:55:28 -0400

Fearless

Lend me your hand and we’ll conquer them allBut lend me...

Sun, 09 Sep 2012 22:45:58 -0400

Lend me your hand and we’ll conquer them all
But lend me your heart and I’ll just let you fall
Lend me your eyes I can change what you see
But your soul you must keep, totally free

Mess

Wed, 05 Sep 2012 13:07:40 -0400

My creative endeavors steal more of my free time than anything...

Wed, 22 Aug 2012 14:02:00 -0400

My creative endeavors steal more of my free time than anything else and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

“You can try and fail, but never fail to try”

Another chapter, it’s beautiful already. I’ve got a passion for life and i’m running with it. I can’t stop and I don’t want to. Its musical, its creative, its free, its reality, its full of youth, its fun, it’s intimidating, its everything I never expected. I’m often overcome with nerves, but i’m driven. I’ll get there, afterall, progress is more than important that outcome.

We all have so much potential. Everyone. Make use of it.

By far Mat Kearney’s entire album “Young Love”...

Tue, 14 Aug 2012 00:00:00 -0400

By far Mat Kearney’s entire album “Young Love” contains some of the best, most playful and lyrically worthy songs i’ve come across in a long time. I’m so delighted at 11:53 PM listening to his music… I can’t barely sit still. The sound is so inviting for a dance under the moonlight (in my humble abode ofcourse).

It’s difficult to perfectly describe how powerful the...

Mon, 13 Aug 2012 22:10:35 -0400

It’s difficult to perfectly describe how powerful the human sense of sight is and how it effects the way we percieve things inside and out.

Its that complete human feeling of kicking yourself gently for...

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 23:03:22 -0400

Its that complete human feeling of kicking yourself gently for not saying/doing what your head or heart was encouraging you to so badly.